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Jizz Production. Ew.
03:10 Apr 25 2006
Times Read: 745

you can read it from the top ;]

this one was so much fun i decided to make it easy to read ;]





On 01:57:11 Apr 25 2006 Raynne wrote:



I need that jizz asap.

get on it.



On 01:58:18 Apr 25 2006 Daire wrote:



ew.



On 02:01:48 Apr 25 2006 Raynne wrote:



people want what they are paying for.

why they want it i don't know.

but $100 is pretty good for some of your genetic material



On 02:02:18 Apr 25 2006 Daire wrote:



ew ew



On 02:03:20 Apr 25 2006 Raynne wrote:



hmm.

have we hit a snag in production?

do we need to hire some more people?



On 02:03:36 Apr 25 2006 Daire wrote:



ew ew ew



On 02:06:21 Apr 25 2006 Raynne wrote:



*taps lip*

do we want to hire males, females or should we be an equal oppurtuinity employer? hmmmm

it would boost the image to be equal oppurtunity.



On 02:07:11 Apr 25 2006 Daire wrote:



ew ew ew ew



On 02:12:44 Apr 25 2006 Raynne wrote:



*nods* we'll go with that.

i'm sure we can employ some homeless for a few hours.

and then maybe we can meet this weeks quota.



ok, Daire, you are in charge of production so get it out there, find some homeless willing to work for cash and let's beat the deadline



On 02:14:07 Apr 25 2006 Daire wrote:



ew ew ew ew ew



On 02:16:43 Apr 25 2006 Raynne wrote:



*eyes you*

well?

come on.

*waits*

is there too much pressure?

or are we having.....other....issues?



I think i have some viagra or something if that'll help.



On 02:17:53 Apr 25 2006 Daire wrote:



ew ew ew ew ew ew



On 02:21:10 Apr 25 2006 Raynne wrote:



hmm

interested party just bid $101

the demand is going through the roof and the supply is not equal to that....



get your booby twin in here, we'll market his as "new jizz" that will explain the difference in color, potency and taste.



On 02:21:42 Apr 25 2006 Daire wrote:



ew ew ew ew ew ew ew



On 02:23:53 Apr 25 2006 Raynne wrote:



YES!

and then when we get production up in your area, we'll bring it back as "jizz classic" and i'll...i mean we'll make millions!



that reminds me i need to phone the black market.

they want a test sample to see how well it works as a weapon of mass destruction.



On 02:24:31 Apr 25 2006 Daire wrote:



ew ew ew ew ew ew ew ew



On 02:29:00 Apr 25 2006 Raynne wrote:



ALRIGHT!

we may actually get rich off this scheme

ok you go get homeless and Toilet Head



i'ma call my contact on the black market and get him this sample

*wiggles a vial*



On 02:29:39 Apr 25 2006 Daire wrote:



pft.



On 02:30:44 Apr 25 2006 Raynne wrote:



damn i was trying to fill the screen with "ew"s



On 02:31:29 Apr 25 2006 Daire wrote:



I got tired of saying it.



On 02:34:02 Apr 25 2006 Raynne wrote:



pfft

you had the easy job

i had to keep coming up with ways for you to say it :P



On 02:34:59 Apr 25 2006 Daire wrote:



You could just ask me.



On 02:36:11 Apr 25 2006 Raynne wrote:



Daire will you fill the message up with "ew"s?



On 02:37:20 Apr 25 2006 Daire wrote:



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05:08 Apr 24 2006
Times Read: 750

If I went away, would you notice?

would you miss me?

My Head Needs Emptying
05:15 Apr 23 2006
Times Read: 757

if i don't find a release i'll explode

the desire is overwhelming and the way i feel about it is nothing i've felt before some ultimate rightness about myself and who i should be



it fills me to over-flowing... all the things i want to say to you all the things you already KNOW

i'm sure the repetition gets old and stale

i'm sure you find frustration now and then in the weakness you bestow



i fight it second to second and day to day and still i am happy in my blissful empty-headedness

i feel myself ignoring my intelligent thoughts on the matter



i know my emotions take over

you get the brunt of them between the eyes on a daily basis and i can not be surprised of your leaving now and then.



we both have hope of the future but a continuing frustration with the present

i've thought about leaving you be...

maybe for a day, two days, a week...

just to give you a break from the distraction i am

but then i don't know if i could stay away

because i don't want to...



i would do nearly anything for you, all you have to do is say it... but you won't, that’s not who you are

even if you want to you will not speak the words

although i long to hear them, its better i don't

it will only make it harder

and the weakness stronger



i only wish i could show you how i feel instead of using the empty words that i do now.

05:03 Apr 22 2006
Times Read: 762

every now and then i need a reminder

that you still feel the same

every now and then i feel the need to remind you

that i'm still the same

nothing has changed



i still mumble your name in my sleep

To You
03:25 Apr 21 2006
Times Read: 769

you know who you are.

you made the sweetest gesture to me, made my presence here even sweeter. you lift me up and encourage me and you don't even know me..yet you do what you do for me all the time. first you've given me smiles and strength and now this...words cannot express my thanks and appreciation for it...nothing i could ever say or do would be enough.... you are wonderful and amazing and i am honored to be your friend :)

Digital "Me"
01:22 Apr 19 2006
Times Read: 793

a very dear friend of mine makes computer animated shorts and flims and he has been kind enough to add me into one. I'm going to be a vampire slayer it seems.



Buffy's got nothing on me, yo.

he does a vampire series:

consangunity

and his website is:

bathtub-productions



he rocks

Bunnies Have Lost The Will To Live
17:23 Apr 17 2006
Times Read: 809














bunny suicide

When Not IF
19:30 Apr 16 2006
Times Read: 816

aimless wanderings of the mind find truths in actions and discoveries of things already known but not admited.....permitted.....

i knew you would find them and you would be gone moments of desperation lead to the understanding that i may never see you again and i carry that every day

Scrap Of Paper
04:09 Apr 16 2006
Times Read: 821

i wrote your name on a scrap of paper, torn and wrinkled.....i carried it in my pocket for hours, every now and then, fingering it when situations became tense.......the thought of who you are in all it's splendor brought a smile to my lips and held off the panic......



we try to find each other with out seeing we already have

Just Write
23:19 Apr 14 2006
Times Read: 836

and the comfort that you gave was stripped away and i was cold, alone, searching in the emptiness i stared unceasingly at names willing yours not to be among them deadening myself not to feel your absence as night wears on and day breaks with deafening silence over waves i feel but do not see in the haze of a dawn that burns with fire and ember heralding the death of what was, will and is i turn to a revelation, a resolution and i snap photos of a life i was meant to live, but never got the chance then with insomnia of the mind and narcolepsy of the heart i watch the eastern sky for signs...............of anything and everything longing for what i never knew was even there but felt so strongly all these years it stood before me, a monster of my own design crooning softly until i noticed and i strained the bonds nearly to breaking but still they held unbreakable in the desire and pain of souls that ache in longing of release and voices that cry out to be heard only echoing on the light of stars as those ripped apart watch the skies for words of azure that scald the heavens, messages from the future that promise what should be, but often times are not decisions made in the heart that never become reality and promises in dreams that never awake darkness is made one with the light and future with past in millisecond that destiny is recognized and the admitting of what should have been all this time.

JUST saw this:
05:59 Apr 14 2006
Times Read: 839

on the House forum:



Does Raynne reeealy have to behave?





Careful...he might ban the consumption of cheese in the house*lip quivering*





*laughs*

by the by:



I noticed you ignored that stupid question Daire :P



I don't blame you

Besides I already know the answer:



no.





muahahahahahaha

05:50 Apr 14 2006
Times Read: 843




I'm mostly just the culmination of things that have happened to, and around me ;)



I'm crazy about the culmination of things that have happened to and around you, love.



hehe.. ok ;)

19:36 Apr 13 2006
Times Read: 850

I had this message today:



Kat has purchased for you a 1 month Vampire Rave Premium Membership.





I have no idea who Kat is.....

But that was very kind and sweet of them







found out she lost a bet to Toilet Head hehee

thanks ToiletDuc :D *cheese*

Code For:
00:46 Apr 12 2006
Times Read: 854

I'm bored and in a good mood....



cheesey nippled poodle boys dance with hippos during blue moons



and give honey roasted nuts to plastic covered girls who shoot spit wads at Irish narcoleptics on busses

WORK WORK WORK
23:51 Apr 11 2006
Times Read: 855

So of course the past month the damn retail job hasn't been giving me many hours (not that I complained)

But this week (when I have over two hundred wedding photos and two jobs tomorrow) they decide I need to work long, late hours.



Bastards.



I decided this is not happening again. I refuse to try and work weeks like this.

And since I enjoy and make more at the photography...

I changed my availability.



Sunday 9-2

Monday 8-12

Tuesday 8-6

Wednesday unavailable

Thursday 8-6

Friday 8-12

Saturday 8-1



Someone is going to have issues with this

ALTHOUGH technically I shouldn't even be scheduled Monday Wednesday Friday and Saturday because my job description is "logistics" not "customer service"

My direct boss was telling me to be unavailable both Friday and Saturday...

But she's shady and I think she was trying to cause trouble between me and the Manager who does the schedule.



Still

I expect a talking to on Thursday.



Bring it on.

Much needed laughs
03:51 Apr 11 2006
Times Read: 862




A couple of things really gave me a good laugh tonight

and after the day I've had fearing for someone I care about... I needed it ;]



The first was

"They make my brane hurt."

I just burst out laughing so hard at that.



second was this strip that a friend pasted to me:











see more here:

DADT

It Takes Me Over
21:46 Apr 10 2006
Times Read: 866

I have this vague 'something is wrong' feeling today

it woke me early and has been creeping up my spine and sinking in my stomach all day.



I'm tied in knots somehow and I can't figure why



I thought maybe it was that photo haunting me

and it may be in part...



but it smacks of something......more......



There is a calmness hanging in the air

of foreboding



I fear for something.... or someone...

GRRRRRRRR
07:02 Apr 10 2006
Times Read: 876

So all the photos came out pretty well.

EXCEPT one

and it was the ONLY shot I have of that moment

-_-

*sigh*

This angers me and makes my perfectionist ways go nuts

I can't fix it and that annoys me more





But I suppose for losing my wedding virginity it could have been worse...



but still I hate giving work thats not the best

and I have to give it



*SIGH*

If I Could Be....All The Time
00:40 Apr 10 2006
Times Read: 883

I just want to crawl into your head and walk around inside your mind.

I want to see what is in there

I want to see what makes you....you

The way you speak... making everyday things interesting

The way you see colours separate from the image...

The way you see the nodes of an entire object...

I want to view the world through your eyes

I want to see the mathematics in everything and understand it...

I want to see the logic

I want to be part of that program

The dream sequences through which I live are common place

I want to experience the ride

Just once

You awaken my senses in ways I never dreamed

But I find it hard to speak to you

Comings And Goings
04:50 Apr 09 2006
Times Read: 891

I remember how it was before you...before this part of our lives...this shared understanding...this emotional weight that binds us together...

I remember how it was when you disapeared...somehow I feel you never will again...that the ties you've bound yourself with...are the same tied to me...that we will always know where the other is..

I remember your words of truth...your notes of gold that sang to me...... in the honesty of a sacrifice...made only for me...

I remember the light in your eyes....it told me more than you ever could....I wonder if I'll ever see it again...

I remember you telling me....and sobbing as I stroked your hair...a fantasy that never died...and a breaking of a wall....

Distance
04:42 Apr 09 2006
Times Read: 892

I am unafraid behind a camera

It is my crutch with shutter speed

and my medication

Dist was my best friend today

He gives me strength in all his mechanical splendor



I think the photo job went well

tomorrow starts the fun part

07:36 Apr 08 2006
Times Read: 897

Do you see what you do to me?

Do you understand the implications of the promises we never speak but which just hang in the silence between our words?

Do I have the strength?

Do we have the answers?

I can't even remember the questions..........

Feeling Strangely Fine
22:47 Apr 07 2006
Times Read: 898

I am calm

After months of only looking forward until tomorrow

With apprehension and nervousness.

I am not freaking out to my amazement



the venue is somewhere I've been...

which also helps



I haven't thought past tomorrow in so long, it's like my life just would end tomorrow evening I wonder what next week will bring……….

SO?
00:11 Apr 07 2006
Times Read: 911

I can't purchase a Premium Membership for myself because "The Asshole of Funds" 'doesn't like' this site.



This both angers and upsets me.



So now I plot.

Screw You Guys, I'm Going Home
23:21 Apr 06 2006
Times Read: 913

Today for work I wore a shirt with Stan Marsh on it and a caption that says "I've learned something today"

This afternoon I noticed some customer and his buddies watching me. I, of course, had my usual paranoia but went about my business as usual...until he decided to approach me. I watched him swagger over with the air of someone who's about to do something he thinks is A) clever B) impressive or C) all of the above.

I smiled my little "customer smile" that rarely reaches my eyes and asked if I could help him with anything.

He said with a slick smile "What did you learn today?"

and gestured at my shirt.



I said "I learned never to talk to strangers." and walked away.

His buddies at least, appreciated my wit.

Agoraphobia
08:52 Apr 06 2006
Times Read: 917

I have it.



American def: Anxiety about being in places or situations from which escape might be difficult (or embarrassing) or in which help may not be available in the event of having an unexpected or situationally predisposed Panic Attack or panic-like symptoms. Agoraphobic fears typically involve characteristic clusters of situations that include being outside the home alone; being in a crowd or standing in a line; being on a bridge; and traveling in a bus, train, or automobile.



European def: It is now taken to include fears not only of open spaces but also of related aspects such as the presence of crowds and the difficulty of immediate easy escape to a safe place (usually home). The term therefore refers to an interrelated and often overlapping cluster of phobias embracing fears of leaving home: fear of entering shops, crowds, and public places, or of travelling alone in trains, buses, or planes. Although the severity of the anxiety and the extent of avoidance behaviour are variable, this is the most incapacitating of the phobic disorders and some sufferers become completely housebound; many are terrified by the thought of collapsing and being left helpless in public. The lack of an immediately available exit is one of the key features of many of these agoraphobic situations. Most sufferers are women and the onset is usually early in adult life. Depressive and obsessional symptoms and social phobias may also be present but do not dominate the clinical picture. In the absence of effective treatment, agoraphobia often becomes chronic, though usually fluctuating.

You
00:14 Apr 06 2006
Times Read: 926

I feel down and you bring me up without telling me what I want to hear. You accept me for who and what I am without question. You allow me to drive you to distraction when I feel the need without showing annoyance. A word from you is equal to all the attention from others and I hang on every word you speak. Love is not here, but something that means....more. And while you may love me, and perhaps I you, that’s not what this is about. Love is irrelevant when two people can communicate and enjoy each other this much. At least I don't feel we need to define it that way. I am considering myself lucky to call myself your friend.

Who Is IT?
17:09 Apr 05 2006
Times Read: 934

Sometimes what you see is not how it really is...

My perception gets skewed and I don't see what’s in front of my face. Or at least I don't see it for what it is.



Life has a way of showing you things about yourself you may not like. My weakness is appearing in places I never dreamed. The wickedness in me is trying to escape...

I fight it with my honor and sense of self-worth...but I am inherently selfish



My sub conscious has been trying to tell me something, but I refuse to listen...

I haven't remembered a dream in great detail in a long time and that’s unusual for me.

This morning I was dreaming, I know that much, and remember feeling there was a knock on a door in my dream and I immediately awoke with a sense of dread. Once I completely woke up, the feeling past, but I still wonder what that knock was about...and what was on the other side...

I wonder what I would have discovered about myself if I had answered...and what it means that I consciously refused.



I wonder if someone is really trying to beat down the door and discover me.

02:16 Apr 05 2006
Times Read: 942

I know why you won't speak

sometimes we don't say what we want to for the simple fact we want to

and sometimes silence speaks louder than screams

"You Boys Like Mexico?"
23:18 Apr 04 2006
Times Read: 950

I am quite often reminded how unobservant I am about certain things...

I think I stay in my head so much that I sometimes don't catch the obvious:



Today at work the subject of Cinco De Mayo came up

And I said “When is that?"

One of my work pals looked at me funny and said "May fifth...."

I was about to say "Oh, ok" and carry on with whatever I was thinking about but everyone was looking at me so strangely that I paused and really thought about it.

It finally came to me what "Cinco De Mayo" was and I had to laugh out loud long and hard at myself.



I lived in California where Cinco De Mayo was a huge thing and had Hispanic friends and it never ONCE occurred to me that “Cinco De Mayo” was "The Fifth of May"



I'm so brilliant some times.

“Please, Sir, I Want Some More.”’
05:03 Apr 04 2006
Times Read: 965


Just keep filling up the damn bowl you S.O.B. I'll never get enough





I was telling some one about the statistic of women having a higher average IQ than men



incidently he always scores on point above me in IQ tests.....

So far anyway.

He has the ability to make me "dumb" in every sense of the word





[8:08 PM] sweetlyevil says:

haha i just read an "interesting fact" that said women have a higher IQ average than men.

8:08 PM] Maleficent says:

heh.. 'statistical fact' which means even less without seeing the details of the statistics

[8:09 PM] sweetlyevil says:

yeah i think the way their minds work with emotions sometimes makes them appear "dumber"

[8:11 PM] sweetlyevil says:

notice i say "their" like i'm not or something heh.

[8:11 PM] Maleficent says:

with more refined statistics.. although still statistics.. smart women are statistically more like to be smarter than smart men.. and dumb women are statistically more like to be dumber than dumb men.. but it's all extremely subjective anyway :)

[8:12 PM] sweetlyevil says:

*nods*

[8:14 PM] sweetlyevil says:

like me, myself...i am usually very secure in my intelligence, but bring you around and i go 'uuuhhhhh' and drool slightly.

[8:14 PM] Maleficent says:

lol

[8:15 PM] sweetlyevil says:

*grins*

8:15 PM] Maleficent says:

i put effort into being a statistical anomoly ;)

[8:16 PM] sweetlyevil says:

HAHAHAHAHA

ONE
01:52 Apr 04 2006
Times Read: 967

The revelations we reveal to each other in shared moments of weakness become locked away and kept safe, not to be spoken again, but to be dusted off and tenderly remembered when we forget how it used to be, will be, for always.

05:35 Apr 03 2006
Times Read: 972

you would make that sacrifice for me...

i am awed.

18:10 Apr 02 2006
Times Read: 973

someone said to me that i "have been cruel to fate" and now i'm "reaping what i sowed"



i don't believe in fate

but in circumstances like this.....it's easy to believe something is there.

15:57 Apr 02 2006
Times Read: 974

i haven't slept well the past few days..

first i was up all night friday...

my mind turmoil of thoughts and emotions I didn't want to have.

then when i finally was able to close my eyes late saturday morning i would start to dream....

i can't remember the details but as soon as the dream would start i'd wake up terrified or searching for someone i knew wasn't there with tears in my eyes.

i finally gave up trying to sleep around 3 pm

i was listless and on the verge of tears all day from lack of sleep and flashes of the dream...or rather flashes of feelings from the dream.

i was able to rest about 2am this morning..

and actually slept until 8:30

i still feel exhausted

but at least i don't remember dreaming.

Disease
00:34 Apr 02 2006
Times Read: 980

it becomes too much

overflowing into emotion

and we both explode in moments of weakness

it’s over now

and then you retreat into yourself

a withdrawal of inevitability

i can't say anything

i can't do anything

as you fade away

if only there was something to say

that would break down walls

and beat down doors

i stand alone in the middle of the wreckage

of my mind

looking to pick up the pieces

but there is no where to start

i have nowhere to go

i could run to you

and you'd let me in

but i'm tethered to a cage

and you can't break me free

although you long to

Uhh...What?
13:12 Apr 01 2006
Times Read: 985

4 what do u mean??? Tiz no nevermind... I'll defintly encounter in da next 2 come, untill den, vicoucs nightmarez, may u kill dem all... -Diablo-



On 11:49:32 Apr 01 2006 Raynne wrote:



I do not claim to be immortal

I believe death takes us all





On 11:48:20 Apr 01 2006 diablo213 wrote:



I really, dont hope u take diz da wrong way my friend, but nomatter how far up n da scall ur, I think ur, a, pawn n some one else's game, Y , do I think dat, I need ur help, Please explain Y U sound so mortal, it soundz like ur hunting skillz have diminished, u dont feel 4 dez foolz do u??? I tought dat diz waz a Imortals relem??? Please 4give me 4 my rude vocabulary, but Im still learning, 4 times keep changing... And diz bloody thing keeps trying 2 get da best of me... -Diablo-

Breathe By Moist
09:45 Apr 01 2006
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save

save me from this

wandered around the town

all the thousand things

i might miss



and you

think well suffer much

think well close our eyes

just to see the light

pass us by



with tomorrow coming

hope that i dont

let you down again

said im so glad to be here

does it mean a thing

if only i could breathe

what you breathe

if only i could see what you see



sit

well take our time

watching the flowers grow

all the friends weve known say

goodbye



and you

did you suffer much

did you close your eyes

just to see the night

rush on by



gathered all around you

hope that we dont

let you down again

i said im so glad to be here

does it mean a thing

if only i could breathe

what you breathe

if only i could see what you see



said im so glad to be here

does it mean a thing



if only i could breathe

what you breathe

if only i could see what you see

if only i could just believe a thing

Someone Else
09:04 Apr 01 2006
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Sometimes I wonder what people really see when they look at me

Do they see "me" or just what I appear to be?

I'm ugly. But I don't care. But do they see that?



and on another note....

Why are people drawn to me?

People who I forget...never seem to forget me...

I don't understand it

and it makes me uncomfortable

I don't like it when someone comes up to me and jsut starts talking ..

obviously the remember me, and while their face LOOKS familiar, I do not remember who they are and usually not where I met them



Sometimes I wish I were someone else

Natural High
01:25 Apr 01 2006
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I went to take my portfolio to the Wedding Coordinator I'm partnered with today.



She's talking about expanding things to include parties and indecently has a 50th Birthday party scheduled for next year that will be fashioned like the tea party from Alice in Wonderland.



I all ready have visions of wonderful shots from the mere IDEA



It seems people are impressed with my work.

One of her partners was looking through my portfolio and going literally nuts for my work.

It was nice...



She and the wedding coordinator are already talking about booking me to do some family work for them the weekend after next.



It’s really good to have something you love to do appreciated by others.



There is nothing that makes me feel the way photography does.